Community. Comunidade. Geimenschaft. However you say it, community is essential to us humans. It’s defined as “a group of people living in the same place or having a particular characteristic in common.” Though there are other variants of the definition, it’s a coming together and enjoying a commonality. Even the most introverted among us typically like to venture out every so often to enjoy their people. Their pack. No one gets through this life on their own and like Donne said, no man is an island.

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My latest post for Girls in Gis talks about just that, community. You can read it here. Definitely the most difficult thing I’ve ever had to write because it’s so hard to quantify and put in words exactly what my tribe, on the mats and off, means to me. When you’re up, it’s lovely to be able to contribute wisdom and and a helping hand where you can. When you’re in the dark times that inevitably touch us all, being held up by like-minded souls who want the best for you is one of the best feelings I know. It changes lives.

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Don’t feel you have a community or tribe of kindred spirits? Find one. Make one. Give yourself to a cause, however big or small or normal or weird it might seem. There’s no rules and people will judge no matter what. It really can make all the difference and I’m pretty sure science has proven a whole bunch of times how beneficial strong social bonds are, especially as we age. Still not sure? Start Googling things that interest you and the name of where you live. Even in the Covid era, there are communities out there waiting for you. Join jiu jitsu! (wink wink, nudge nudge).

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Humans have always sought to create groups for themselves, and always will. I’ve had the privilege to be a part of some great ones and wish that for you as well. It can be the difference between mediocrity and greatness, as we become who we choose to surround ourselves with. Are you part of an amazing community? I want to hear from you! Tell me what makes it so damn good, you never know who you might inspire xo.

One of those nights

Tonight was one of those nights. One of those nights where I didn’t really want to go to jiu jitsu, where I could feel more ache and fatigue than motivation. My shoulder was especially cranky. I just wanted to stay home with the blahs.

But I went. Through the warm up, all I could feel was heaviness in my legs and exhaustion everywhere else. During drills, I mostly got it wrong. And when we rolled (sparred)? All I could see was what I was doing wrong. I just to go home and cry in the shower.

But I didn’t. It’s so easy to give in to our dark side, our smallest selves. Even writing this now, I feel like staying in my pity party. I’m learning, though. Learning that not every thought is true and that it’s never as bad as you think. For everything I thought I did wrong, there were probably 5 really good things.

I’m learning too that failure is not only the beginning of success, it’s 100% the most important part. Anything that went wrong tonight is tomorrow’s opportunity to improve. Like Churchill said, “Success is going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm.” It’s in the willingness to keep showing up.

It may not have been my best night, not even close. Some nights are like that, no matter what sport, hobby or lifestyle. I already can’t wait for class tomorrow.

Don’t Let the Ego Drive

You’ve heard it before: “Leave your ego at the door”. Or maybe it was “Your ego is not your amigo”. We’re told again and again that there’s no place for ego in jiu jitsu, or in life. We all nod knowingly and say things like “Of course, I know that my ego has no place on the mat” or “oss!”. We want to fit in. Belonging is a human need, it’s only natural. But do we really know our ego, or how it fits in to our training and our lives?

The ego is the view we have of ourselves. The ego also loves (adores, really) feeling special and fights like hell at any suggestion that you may not be that special or that people might see what’s underneath the fear: insecurities, doubts, trauma, the humanity we each possess. It constantly beats the drum of what if I’m not _____ enough (fill in the blank: good, strong, smart, skilled etc) in an effort to prevent you from feeling brave enough to step into the growth zone. Taken a step further, it turns into “What if no one accepts me and I don’t belong?” I have felt this way and I bet you have too. It’s not a very nice feeling, but how does it show up on the mats?

On the mats, we see ego in action every time we practice. How many of these are you guilty of? Spazzing just a little when you feel you’re losing control in roll, only doing the moves you feel you’re good at, using strength on partners you feel are outpacing or otherwise beating you, refusing to tap when you really should or otherwise putting “victory” ahead of learning. I am or have been guilty of every single of one these because my ego was driving the bus. When we stay in our egoic state and deny vulnerability, we block growth in our games and ourselves. The aforementioned behaviours seem almost ubiquitous in jiu jitsu, and even in life, but if they’re not good for us, what is the antidote?

The good news is that there is indeed a way out and jiu jitsu has known the answer for years. You have undoubtedly heard your Professor say “There is no losing in jiu jitsu, you only win or learn”. And it’s 100% true. By showing up, by stepping on the mats and being willing to be terrible or even just new at something, by tapping (rather than snapping or napping), we are submitting our egos. It’s not easy and it takes practice to say to ourselves “I am willing to try to get better at this” rather than “I am terrible at this and give up.” Our ego will roar back to life and say everything possible to remain the loudest voice but we must stay vigilant against this.

I let all of this go mostly unnoticed as a newbie white belt. It probably affects all of us when we’re new at anything. Lately, by focusing on growth over victory and the ol’ comfort zone, I have been having the time of my life. I’m getting smashed more, failing more and still having a great time. By allowing myself to savour the process over the results, I am having fun with experimentation, with knowing that every training session is a drop in the bucket that is adding up to the desired results and seeing my motivation soar off the charts. Who knew? I’ll leave you with this: What would happen this week if you consciously took steps to put your ego to the side and stepped out of your comfort zone in a way you might not have before? Looking forward to hearing the results!


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